i miss you

If you dont want to be with ME then i will be by MYSELF without YOU....

put the capitals together.... its spells Me, MYSELF and YOU.



i wanna know why ...

all i ever heard was nick jonas this .. nick jonas that ..

you never stayed on for more than 5 minutes

you never seemed to be interested in anything i said...

and why you are a different demi in person than when you are online .... its like two different people ...



i love the way you make me laugh and the way i can say anything to you without being laughed at, the way i trust you and the way you seem closer than you actually are.



the way i cry everytime i hear our song and the way i cry even more when i remember the way things are now ...



i dont want it to be this way... i knew you wanted more time to be in reality but it felt like you just quit on us and gave up ...



"i know the back of your head like the back of my hand ... because you walked away" ...



this quote made me cry today .. because i felt like you walked away from me and everything ..

i must sound stupid but i miss you .

i just want to ask one thing of you ....

i want you to come out of reality for just at least 1 hour on a weekend. so we can talk , so we can be stupid and we can be friends. so we can write music together and get where we want to be.



if the issue is that you dont want to be music "partners" anymore because i am a crappy partner i know ... then if thats what you want i will deal with it but i dont want to lose a best friend ...

dont take offsense at any of this... it just me wanting to tell you what i feel ..
dont get mad .. because thats the last thing i want x
i love you in every different language x
and im sorry ...

- beth x

My first blog x

Hey,
im beth .. im 16 years old from a town in the south west of england and i love to sing.
thats the same way i start every single blog or "about me" thingy.. boring isnt it ..
well how about i tell y'all some things that are a little more me than the whole .. "im 16 and i live here and i like this and this .."

im 16 years young and i am ambitious and dream about being somehwere far far away from here. i want to sing on stage and do it all with my best friend who lives in germany. i want my 3 other best friends to go along with us ... they live in poland, portugal and one lives in my home town. im into cool milkshakes and those beret hats. check shirts and my gorgeous ugg boots.
i love my bestie friends and those who make my day special because of the little things they do like making me laugh, giving me hugs and just saing hi. i love the feeling and atmosphere at christmas and frosty mornings. the lights on a christams tree make me smile every morning when i see them.
im into jonas brothers and taylor swift. i dream of being on disney channel on day with demi saying ... " hey im beth and your watching disneyy channel". i practice it in my mirror which sounds lame but i know everyone does something like that.
and the rest i think i will keep to myself for now.

this blog will be my place for writing down things that happen. this that make me mad, sad and things in my life that are going to be a mile stone x

bye xx

beth <3